Update and sad realization

Just happened by and thought I would leave an update.

If anything, my tinnitus is getting worse and with that I am growing more and more desperate. It has been 24/7 for years now but these days it is SCREAMING loud. Loud to the point where it wakes me up at night. I am always tired as a result. I have tried a number of possible cures none of which have had any effect. LipoFlavinoid was one that I was really hopeful about but to no avail. I have actually thought about how it may be preferable to actually be deaf. Then I think that given my luck I would have ruined my ears but would still hear the tinnitus. D'oah!

Then today I had a realization that just about did me in. That being that even if I only live to 65 that is another 20 years of listening to this shit. Like it or not. NOT! This realization has truly bummed me out; for today at least. I can't have this in my head for another 20 years. I just can't or I think I will either go completely crazy or become extremely bitter and impossible to be around. Nobody wants that. Trust me.

Days like today make me wish I was already old and on my way out because if this doesn't end soon, the end can't come soon enough!